Feeling

夏天来了。
你热吗？
我很热，我感觉热并且象是要生病了。
我热，但是我似乎冷得满身鸡皮疙瘩，那热是狂躁不安，来自心的深处。

Summer coming.
Are you hot?
I 'm hot. feeling so hot, seems as sick soon.
I am hot, but the gooseflesh all over my body, cold also. I know the hot, it's manic and uncomfortable from heart.

相同的一天。
今天你过得好吗？
我过得很好吧？！好得让我发疯似的想要大哭一场。
我很好，我还好。是的，我不好。我受够了这样的孤寂和自闭考验着自己并不完全坚强的心灵。我迷惘了，绝大部分是失落。象是踏进一个忽冷忽热的陷阱。

Same day.
How are you today?
I am good today! Am I? Yeah, it's enough make me crazy and want to cry.
I am fine. Not bad. Oh no, I am not good. I have enough of that style of lonely and dereism. That's test my heart it's not strong, and from my self.
I be perplexed, mostly is lose. Seems setting foot in a trap, with fire of ice and ice of fire.

我需要一个假期。
你最近度过假吗？
我没有假期已经好久了，但是似乎又天天是假期。
对着镜子自说自话的假期，朋友就是影子。
说真的，我真的象是大海中的一只没有舵的船，遭受颠覆。

I need holiday.
Did you take a holiday lately?
I am no holiday long time, or seems every day is holiday.
Face to mirror, I was speaking with it. And friend is my shadow.
And yet, I really like a rudderless vessel in mid-sea, be exposed to overthrow.
 

2003.6.10..23:30pm